Yours Faithfully Part 2

Dear Diary,

I have not been up to much recently, surprisingly. I’ve just pondered around the TARDIS a fair number of times, thinking. Oh, diary, a Time Lord should never be left alone with their thoughts for too long, especially not one as old as me.  Amy and Rory are gone now, River is busy with her life at the moment and I don’t wish to disturb them in their lives right now. It’s not that I’m bored of them now; I just find it hurts to travel with people whether it is for a short amount of time or a long amount of time. I always feel better when I travel alone. Actually, you know what? That’s a lie. It always has been. I can’t travel alone because it means I spend even more time thinking. I cannot help but think about everything and anything happening around me. What can I say; it really IS the curse of the Time Lords.

There is one person who has been on my mind increasingly recently: Rose. I can’t stop thinking about her. I have said goodbye to her, more than once, but never willingly. It’s always been a thing that must happen, not that I want it to happen. I act like I don’t think about her anymore, that I’ve got over her, that she’s just another companion, just another person I’ve fallen in love with. But no, there is and always has been something different about her. I don’t know what, but I love it. I love everything about her. The way her hair falls across her face, the little dimples when she smiles, those beautiful big eyes of hers. Everything. I see no flaw in her. None whatsoever. Through my eyes, she is perfect. I feel like the only person who notices it, but I guess that really is just me. I have honestly never felt like this with anybody else before. And I still love her. I still miss her every second of the day that passes. I have tried distracting myself from thinking of her by going on adventures and getting into a whole lot of chaos, but nothing works. I can’t stop thinking about her.

Gosh, this is getting pretty personal. I have never told anybody this before, diary. Not even Rose. I still regret my choice in so many ways when I last saw her at Bad Wolf Bay. I’m such an idiot sometimes. I love Rose with both my hearts, but I had to decide between knowing she’ll live happily ever after with the man she loves or me being able to spend more time with her but putting her in danger the entire time. Of course I’m going to choose the former option, I’m The Doctor. That’s what I do. I save lives. It’s in the name. That’s why I call myself The Doctor. Plus it sounds quite cool.

I sometimes wish I could travel back to Pete’s World again. Just to say hello. Just to see how Rose and my human duplicate are getting along. What it’s like to take the slow path for once. Just to see that gorgeous smile one last time.

Oh, diary, I am sorry for pouring out all of my feelings to you at this hour, but I feel this is the only place I can. Nobody else could possibly understand what goes through my head at any given moment. It is utter chaos, dear diary. But, I think if I told somebody like you, perhaps it may ease slightly. I don’t know. I sort of hope so because I have nothing else to help me.

Yours faithfully,

The Doctor

Yours Faithfully Part 1

Dear Diary,

I have recently obtained you in a timeline of unlikely events. I would explain them to you, but I do not have that much time today. Perhaps I can tell you some other day. Anyway, I thought I’d introduce myself to you, diary. I’m no good with these sort of ‘in depth’ introductions as I usually just exclaim that I am The Doctor and flaunt about for a bit doing clever things while people watch. But here it goes:

My name is The Doctor. Well actually, it isn’t really The Doctor. ‘Doctor Who?’ they’ve been saying all of these years. I can never tell anybody my name. I say it’s lost in the Medusa Cascade, but really, I just can’t say it. I can’t even tell you, dear diary, what my ‘real’ name is. I’m not even sure if I remember what my real name is. I’m so old now. My memory is fading. Oh gosh, I’m sidetracking a bit, aren’t I?

Anyway, I’m 900 and something now, I think. Oh, who knows? I’m not sure myself. Okay, let’s forget that. Umm... what can I say that I’m sure of to you, diary? Ah, I know! The human race, I love the human race! It’s so... so... so HUMAN! Yes, there are good and bad humans, but although some can be the worst creatures I have ever come across; others can be the greatest people I’ve ever had the pleasure of meeting. Some of whom have saved me in so many ways. I can never truly thank them. Mostly because many are long gone or have forgotten about me. I can’t say I blame them. I have so much guilt from destroying so many people’s lives. I wish I could apologise to them. Just once.

Oh gosh, I’m doing it again, aren’t I? I’m rambling. Sorry, diary, I do this often. I suppose you will probably get used to it. I cannot change it; it’s just the way I am.

Anyway, dear diary, I must leave you for now as the TARDIS phone is ringing!

Yours faithfully,

The Doctor

Busy busy busy

I was hoping I'd post on this blog frequently. But, as you may notice, that has not happened. I would say that I hope things to change, but I cannot know for certain!
So I thought I'd do a 'quick' blog post about what's been happening in my life lately.
I have been off ill a fair bit from college since I began at the beginning of September. Amazingly, though, in the past two weeks I was only off ill once and that was with a horrific cold. A horrific cold of which I am still suffering with! Also, because of this horrible cold, I've been having nosebleeds for the last few days which has been quite annoying, especially while I'm at college.
But, on a positive note, I am really enjoying college at the moment. It's taking over my entire life [not that I have much of one anyway] and it is a lot of work, but I really do love it and I definitely feel I picked the right college. I have already, in the two months being there, made some excellent and amazing friends. They're all awesome, seriously! I've already had some fantastic times with them and I hope to have even more in the near future!
Another thing that has occurred is a number of Youtube videos. Not as many as I'd have hoped, but something. I made a video with my friend Jess the other day. Also, for my collaboration channel Early Nerds, I made a video of me dancing to the Time Warp in my kitchen, a video of me showing you some cool stuff in my room, a video of me doing the Youtube Survey of 2011 and a video of me being really nerdy and talking about things people don't believe.
It is now gone half one in the morning so I shall leave this blog post here.
Farewell!